You are fall...

Fall is my favorite time of the year, and lately I have been soaking up the weather, the colors, smells, and sights of autumn. What a perfect time of the year to reflect, to enjoy family, blessings, and to thank God for all He has done for us. Over the past few weeks, I have jotted down a few attributes of this season, and really meditated on them. God has revealed himself in such a fresh way by me taking time to "be still, and know He is God." Naturally, (and thankfully!) poetry started flowing from my soul, and I thought I would share. I penned this in a format that I have never written in before, sort of a visual cause/spiritual effect kind of way. I hope you enjoy...

"You are fall"

The morning sun, with arms of gold                                    
Displays it's noble light,                                                            
And strretches forth with glorious beams
As victor over night.

(You are fall, Your glory shines
  Like beams for all to see,
  Over night, and sin, and death,
  You've claimed the victory)

Through soaring pines and humble fields,
Swift breezes wake the soul
Of the fingerprints of splendor,
Leaves of green, and red, and gold.

(Spirit move, awake our souls,
 And You our power be,
 Your fame and splendor, majesty,
 May through us, people see.)

Like artisans the trees they lay
Their glory all around,
A quilt of color they prepare
For winter's frozen ground.

(As God, You on the tree there hung,
 Your glory You laid down,
 A quilt of grace Your blood has made
 Propitiation found.)

Thankful

Today, I'm going to be thankful. I am going to slow down and appreciate all the blessings in my life. I am going to smile more at people. I am going to be patient with everyone. I am going to enjoy the fall leaves, and all their color. I am going to enjoy every sip of good quality coffee. I am going to relish the time that I had at breakfast with my family this morning, laughing at Tucker as he hammed it up for all the people around us. I am going to enjoy the beautiful weather, and be thankful for the rain this past week. I am going to play with my dogs. I am going to appreciate my health, and the health of my family. I am going to thank God for His goodness and mercy. I am going to read some, and be grateful for the ability to enjoy a good book. I am going to play music, and be thankful for the gift of sound and music. I'm going to enjoy family, good food and football. I am going to talk to someone about Christ today. I will slow down a little and take in the beauty of creation, and let it speak to my soul. I will take some time to think of those who have impacted my life, and remember those who have gone on to be with the Lord, and thank Him for their legacy of love. I will prepare my heart for corporate worship tomorrow, and yearn to see friends, family, and brothers and sisters in Christ eager to meet with Him there. I am going to cherish my wife, and let her know how much she means to me. I am going to sit here and appreciate the smell of a coffee shop, as the aroma fills this room. I am going to thank God for America, and the freedoms we have here. I am going to love more. I am going to serve more. I am going to live more. And I will be thankful...

truth and public squares...

I don't really know if today was any different than any other day in the news realm, but I could not help but get sucked in to the blatent overall them today on the many networks. I tend to be a news junkie. Whenever I have a few minutes during the day, I love going to various websites, radio stations, tv channels, etc. to see what's going on in this fast paced, connected, global world we live in. It's our modern day public square. It's how people all around the world get facts, read about events, and to see what current issues will affect their lives in the near future. But today seemed a little different. A little biased. A little close to home. It seemed the church, christianity, and the Lord's work (I use that term loosely and firmly at the same time for various reasons) were all woven in to the tapestry of the majority of stories  I seemed to read about. First, with the Christians in Egypt under attack from the interim government, to the Presby USA church ordination of it's controversial clergy, to the Unitarian church here in Charlotte that held a blessing service for pets (filled with "hymns" centered around glorification of animals, rock and roll, and the "clergy's" name), to the GOP debate on the calling of Mormonism "a cult  (and how it is perceived with voters), to Tim Tebow and his polarizing stance for Christ, to the Iranian pastors life in the hands of the Iranian supreme judge, it seems that everything I was reading broke my heart for what I was seeing unfold in front of my very eyes. It should not have come as such a shock I guess, but the overall rejection of truth in our "modern day public square" just reminded me of Isaiah 59, and how the Lord must look at all of this. It says, starting in verse 9: "Therefore justice is far from us, and righteousness does not overtake us; we hope for light, and behold, darkness, and for brightness, but we walk in gloom. We grope for the wall like the blind; we grope like those who have no eyes; we stumble at noon as in the twilight, among those in full vigor we are like dead men. We all growl like bears; we moan and moan like doves; we hope for justice, but there is none; for salvation, but it is far from us. For our transgressions are multiplied before you, and our sins testify against us; for our transgressions are with us, and we know our iniquities: transgressing and denying the LORD, and turning back from following our God, speaking oppression and revolt, conceiving and uttering from the heart lying words. Justice is turned back and righteousness stands far away; for truth has stumbled in the public squares, and uprightness cannot enter. Truth is lacking, and he who departs from evil makes himself a prey. The LORD saw it, and it displeased him..." Wow. I had to repent. Truth is lacking in my world, in my generation, in my heart, and it convicted me to my core. Like Isaiah had stated previously when he realized his condition in the light of God's holiness in chapter 6, I repented of being a man of "unclean lips...in the midst of a people of unclean lips." It was all laid out there all day for me to think over. And what was  most frustrating, for me at least, was the fact that the main issue was not even being discussed, but was lost in the discussion of more trivial things. Yes, the calling of Romney's faith a "cult" was being talked about, but noone ever sought the truth about the statement the entire day. It was assumed that the statement was ill-timed, politically incorrect, and ill-advised. What the issue was about all day long was if the statement would help or hurt certain candidates in the polling. Where are we at as a nation? We say this is a stupid thing to say and then we think it is a travesty for Iran to martyr a pastor for his faith? Where is the standard? Are we really going to criticize a nation for their stance all-the-while demonizing religious freedom at home? Are we really going to act like we are concerned for brothers in Egypt being killed for who they worship while at the same time being tolerant and supportive of "churches" focusing more on  animals and creation than the One True God?  My heart was so saddened at the supportive, positive, and extensive interviews with the Presby minister all day. It was heralded as a great victory for God. A step toward enlightenment for the church. A victory for mankind. What they all forgot to mention was the truth. And to hear Him say that God has been his biggest supporter for the past decade was heresy. A tainting of His name. As I read the Truth in the Scriptures, I do not see that god. He isn't in there. He is Truth, and he is holy. I think the realization that was the plumbline to the heart of the matter was this. All day long, I would venture to say maybe 3-4 hours of news coverage, with all the clergy, rabbis, pastors, media, and politicians interviewed, not once, ONCE, did I hear any scripture quoted. We are so blessed by the freedom to go to His Word for truth in everything we see, but we as a nation have turned our back on Him. Don't believe me? Go to the public squares. It's the pulse of the body that we call our society. A lot of people are searching for Him there.

success...

Today was not a good day. At least from one perspective. I have been recovering from dental surgery, and although the pain and healing process has been much better than I expected, it still has got me down a little. Work wasn't the greatest either. Sometimes things are shown to you unexpectedly that really show you where you stand with people, or with organizations, or with circumstances. And today, it seemed that things from several vantage points were all coming down on me at once. I admit, I kinda shut down a little and internalized things, (like I always do) and I think that, although maybe not the best practice, it helps me to think things through and to prioritize situations. There have been several things this past week that have made me stop, and really be intentional on how I approach them, as opposed to just flying off the cuff and rushing into things. On one hand, it really made me proud of myself that I had the wisdom to handle it like I did, because Lord knows, I didn't want to. But that is where the positive aspects ended. I guess there comes a point in a man's life when he wants to know if he is valuable. If his work really matters. If he is excelling in what he does. If he is a leader. If he is, what we call, successful. And I have learned this week, (learned in my heart, not just in my head) that it truly depends on where you are looking, and who you find success in. As I said earlier, I got off work tonight and was really down. It felt like everything I had really worked for for the past few years did not matter one bit. Nothing went right, nobody seemed to notice anything I had been doing, and that I was running on empty, and had used all my efforts and energy to end up out of gas on a dead end road. Until tonight. I really hadn't planned on it, but my brother and I went to the mall to just hang out awhile. And as usual, we found ourselves wandering aimlessly around BooksAMillion. (after a stop at Starbucks of course)  I really had nothing to buy there, but I love books, and it felt right to just see what was there. I flipped through several books, and browsed the aisles for anything that caught my attention. And then God spoke to me. Through a bible cover? It might have well have been a flashing neon billboard right there in the middle of the store. (and what was I doing looking in the Bible covers anyway...I really dont care for them personally...) Right there in front of me, on the front of the cover was Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope" (ESV)... I honestly wanted to cry right then and there...but I couldn't. Tanner was right there, and I would never hear the end of it. Anyways, I came home and went to Jeremiah, and kept reading... "Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart." (vs 12-13). What a great passage, and what a greater hope. He knows our future, and He has a plan for me. I needed to hear that tonight, and His word was faithful and in perfect harmony with his will for me this week. I just have to remain faithful in what He has called me to do, no matter how small I think His plans may be. It's in Christ I find true success and in Him I find a hope and calling for my life. And I'll be the first to admit, it's hard...really really hard to trust in that sometimes. My ways are definitely not His ways, and sometimes it takes big events to chip away at my pride so I can see this. But He is faithful. I will be the first to admit it, I don't have all the answers, and I confess, that I doubt my leadership abilities more than anyone. I have a hard time looking past my failures and shortcomings, but this one thing I do know. He has a plan for me, a plan for life of hope and meaning. And He has one for you. Success.. it's not found in a job, or money, or status, or influence. It's found in Jeremiah 29: 13...when we seek Him with our whole heart...